Author Archives: bekahoutsidethebox

Is anybody still out there?

I haven’t blogged in a while. It’s been over a year, to be exact. I’m not entirely sure what happened. It’s not that I fell off the blogging bandwagon, except that I kind of did. It wasn’t sudden, but rather a slow and steady decline. So gradual, in fact, that it didn’t raise any of the […]

The Pickaxe by Rumi {Poetry Break}

The Pickaxe ~ by Rumi Tear down this house. A hundred thousand new houses can be built from the transparent yellow carnelian buried beneath it, and the only way to get to that is to do the work of demolishing and then digging under the foundations. With that value in hand all the new construction […]

Tomorrow Is A New Day

I’ve had a doozy of a day. Maybe you can relate? It’s been one of those non-stop, take-no-prisoners, everyone is frustrated and everything is an emergency kind of experiences. Hmm.. you too? The fact that I’d been away on a super sweet long weekend leave-the-cell-phone-at-home backpacking getaway didn’t even soften the blow. Not even a little. […]

Like This by Jelaluddin Rumi {Poetry Break}

If anyone asks you how the perfect satisfaction of all our sexual wanting will look, lift your face and say, Like this. When someone mentions the gracefulness of the nightsky, climb up on the roof and dance and say, Like this? If anyone wants to know what “spirit” is, or what “God’s fragrance” means, lean […]

How You Do Anything

Consider this statement: How you do anything is how you do everything. What do I mean, you ask? I mean- How you feed yourself is how you nourish yourself… ♥ Do you do it out of obligation? Do you savor each bite? Do you even notice that you’re eating amidst the flurry of distractions — tv, texting, work, not […]

She Let Go by Rev. Safire Rose {Poetry Break}

    She let go. Without a thought or a word, she let go. She let go of the fear. She let go of the judgments. She let go of the confluence of opinions swarming around her head. She let go of the committee of indecision within her. She let go of all the ‘right’ […]

Birthday Vlogging

With sweaty palms and a pounding-but-open heart, I present to you my first video attempt in honor of my 33rd solar return!

Our Deepest Fear {Poetry Break}

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? – Marianne Williamson from A Return To […]

Pause.

Pause for a moment with me. Inhale. Exhale. Repeat. Feel the expansion and contraction of your lungs and rib cage… Notice the gentle rise and fall of your chest and belly… Hear the soft whisper of your breath… Inhale. Exhale. Repeat. Allow your breath to slow down… Allow your racing thoughts to mellow… Inhale. Exhale. […]

How Do You Want To Feel?

Recently I read this Danielle LaPorte blog post that stuck with me in a big time way. In there she proclaims that “the journey has to feel the way you want the destination to feel,” — “you can’t fight your way to inner peace,” — and “you can’t punish your way to joy.” Woah. Right? These words […]

Be Your Own Santa Claus

Welp, it’s officially the holiday season. How do I know? Because the other day I cried all the tears on the planet. No seriously, there was a veritable rainstorm of tears uncontrollably streaming out of my eyes for nearly the entire day. And no my friends, I’m NOT talking about ‘pretty crying’ where one or two tears quietly […]

Tug of War

Lately I have been experiencing an internal game of tug of war. A push-pull sort of battle where the concept of ‘self-acceptance’ has been muddied up by the powerful pull of conflicting desires. On the one hand… I crave awareness. I want Truth at all costs. I claw my way towards the world that is waiting […]

What Are You Looking For?

The other morning I found myself on Cloud 9. It wasn’t that everything was going smoothly — there were certainly things I could complain about. Yet I wasn’t complaining. In fact, I was filled with joy. So what was different? I realized that I was looking for (and seeing) all of the ways my life was perfect. […]

You Get What You Give

Have you ever found yourself thinking — “poor me, why don’t I have XY&Z?” (Yeah, me too.) Maybe you look around the world and see other people who seem to have what you want… Close heartfelt connections… Sentimental gifts… Loving family relationships… Direct honest communication… Or whatever else might be on your version of this list. […]

Nothing But Shitty First Drafts

Lately it’s been one shitty first draft after another. It has been exactly 20 days since I last hit publish — longer than I’ve gone without blogging since day one. I’m up to nearly 20 unpublished drafts of varying lengths and have jotted down notes for at least a dozen other ideas. It’s not that I haven’t […]

Fair Warning You Guys, I’m Just Gonna Get Weirder

For the last month or so I’ve found myself regularly throwing my hands up in the air and telling friends and family that “fair warning, I’m just gonna get weirder from here on out!” This phrase has been rolling off my tongue with a big smile, shake of the head, and shrug of the shoulders — as if […]

Owning My Shadow

{inspired by Zoe Quiney of the Rebelle Society} Yesterday morning I woke up overwhelmed by an immense sense of sadness, loneliness, and fear. The day prior a friend had said something seemingly innocuous to me that set off a domino-like pattern of thinking that inevitably leads to this dark place. I tried to use my […]

Enjoying the Moment!

You know those moments where it feels as though all of the moving pieces come together and click into place? The lightbulb-turning-on “ah-ha!” kind of moment? The moment where you stop trying so hard and (like clockwork) you find yourself realizing that the “it” you were seeking was there all along? Were afterward you feel […]

Happy Blogaversery! Celebrating One Year of Putting My ‘Secret Self’ Out There

I realized out of the blue this morning that it’s been an entire year since I nervously hit publish on that first Bekah Outside the Box blog post.  A whole year and 59 posts later, here I am still blogging, still putting my secret self out there into the Universe.  Who would have thought that this […]

Destruction, Desire and ‘Hostile Takeovers’

A few weeks ago Danielle LePorte posed the question: How do you feel about destroying what must be destroyed in your life? And to be perfectly honest, at first I was feeling resistant. Extremely. Resistant. Sure, the desire to change is strong. And it’s easy to identify habitual patterns and ways of being that served a purpose at one […]

The Practice of Showing Up

I’ve been thinking a lot about what it takes to “Show Up” this week because this gremlins in my head urging me to bail have been having a field day. Things I totally want to do, things I definitely don’t want to do, things that scare me, exciting stuff … it doesn’t matter. My inner gremlins, […]

You’re Gonna Hear Me Roar

You guys! Fair warning that I’m about to get a little woo woo. I also just quoted Katy Perry. So, with those two facts in mind, you can decide for yourself whether you want to read any further. (Thanks for reading further.) This weekend I took a mini-road trip to attend an out-of-town yoga workshop with a […]

Turn Your World Upside Down

My childhood was consumed with large quantities of time spent walking around on my hands. I adored being upside down and did gymnastics for many years. Kick up, fall down. Kick up, fall down. Kick up, fall down. I repeated this over and over and over again, loving every second of the process. Until one […]

Tapas, not the Spanish kind

Tapas is a Sanskrit word meaning “to burn” that — in the context of Patanjali’s Yoga Sutras — is often described as “fiery discipline.”  What does that mean, you ask? Tapas is that well of passion simmering deep inside of you that keeps you going when the going gets tough. Tapas lights a fire underneath your ass and gets […]

How to NOT Let the Stress Monsters Eat You Alive: Self Care for Stressful Times

You might say that this month has been stressful. And I don’t mean the normal everyday flavor of stress… oh no! I’m referring to that extra-special, keep-you-up-at-night brand of stress that makes you want to crawl underneath your desk and curl up in the fetal position. (And yes, I know you know exactly what I’m talking about, because we’ve […]

It’s YOUR Practice

From the very first time I stepped onto a mat at It’s All Yoga, my inner dialogue before each practice has been largely the same: I thank myself for moving away from the computer and off the couch. I recognize that simply by walking through the studio doors, I’ve done something kind and loving. I remind myself […]

The Universe Works in Mysterious Ways

I’m not typically a big fan of “the woo woo stuff” (as Michelle, my teacher and friend, calls it), but lately I’ve been thinking that the Universe — while mysterious — must have some sort of larger plan in mind. I see glimpses of it in nature: the complex system through which plants convert the sun’s rays into […]

We Have What We Need

So, I was having a full on pity party the other night. It went something like: Poor me! {Fill in the blank} hasn’t happened. What’s wrong with me? Why are other people getting x, y, and z, but I’m not? I must not be good enough. I must not deserve it. Maybe if I try […]

Maybe You Can: An Ode to Being Wrong

Have you ever been 100% convinced that you couldn’t do something, only to find out that you were 100% wrong?  The other day I took the day off from work and spent the morning practicing yoga with a friend. We came in with a semi-plan (we were headed towards going upside down), but mostly we […]

What You Focus On Expands

This week I did the Peel’d Juice Cleanse. Ok ok, let’s be honest — I didn’t so much as “cleanse,” but rather I drank a lot of juice and ate other food too. See, I lasted exactly one-and-three-quarter days with the whole no meat, dairy, soy, wheat, beans, refined sugar (and so on and so […]

100+ Degree Weather & A Reminder that I’m Not In Charge

It’s been hot in Sacramento this week. No, I mean like really. hot. [See photo evidence above. Not kidding.] It’s so hot that I’ve taken up residence in the living room, to be closer to this contraption: Which, despite being louder than a race car, can barely keep up with my cooling needs, so my apartment is […]

You Write the Story

Have you ever said to yourself — “Who, me? I could never do that!“ Yeah, me too. In fact, it’s been my go-to self-limiting statement for years. Who, me? I could never: Dance like I don’t care who is watching. Fly solo to an event, movie, or dinner out. Survive a night without television or my iPhone to keep […]

The Waiting Game

Last week I did a whole bunch of teaching yoga. Well, to be entirely accurate, I co-taught a class on Friday, did a private lesson on Saturday, and taught a class on Tuesday. While teaching 3x probably doesn’t actually qualify as a “whole bunch,” it felt like a lot. A. Whole. Lot. Okay okay, if we’re being totally honest, I was […]

Help! Blogger Identity Crisis In Progress

I’m having a blogger identity crisis.  Over the past week I have started and scrapped at least 5 blog posts: + I’ve been jamming out to music at work and home even more than usual lately, so I considered sharing my current playlist (it might still happen). + I co-taught a yoga class last Friday and […]

And Just Like That, We’re Done … Or Are We Just Beginning?

Well, yesterday was the conclusion of our yoga teacher training weekends. Five months of meeting with the same 13 people every-other-weekend … done for good. In some respects, it feels unfathomable, like it couldn’t possibly really be over … as if maybe two weeks from now Michelle will jump out from behind a stack of bolsters […]

Am I A Yoga Teacher Fraud?

The other day I was working on yoga school homework — writing my teaching bio (the sort of thing that might someday go on one of these pages) — and I had this fleeting, but intense moment of panic: Me, a yoga teacher? In your dreams! Who would ever buy that? See, the thing is: I […]

The Open Secret

I’ve got a confession to make: I was pretty bummed out in the week leading up to my birthday. Not so much about my birthday itself (I like birthdays!), but rather the fact that it called attention to other aspects of my life that are not 100% how I’d like them to be. Relationships that […]

Happy Birthday To Me!

So, today’s my birthday! (I know, it kind of snuck up on me too.) Lately I’ve been doing a lot of pensive thinking about life — where I came from, what I’ve learned, where I’m headed — big heady subjects, right? And between it being my birthday, the impending end of yoga teacher training, changes […]

Wow, That’s Awkward!

Yoga classes are ripe for awkward moments. I mean, picture this: A group of spandex-clad mostly-female strangers gather together in a room to have someone instruct them about how to gyrate around on rectangular rubber mats and make unusual shapes with their bodies. What could possibly go wrong? Some of the many things that could […]

When All Else Fails, You Could Try Being Yourself

Two words: Online. Dating. (I know, probably not what you thought I was going to say.) I’m fairly certain that nothing on earth could possibly inspire someone to want to embellish or exaggerate more than online dating. It is simply impossible not to feel compelled to try to convey that “yes, of course, I most certainly […]